This weekend was just not good. I’m hoping this week goes better than the weekend. I won’t go into a lot of details but I will say I’m so f-ing SICK of saying goodbye to people I love and watching them move away. It makes me want to never get to know anyone or love anyone because eventually they’ll move or I’ll move and this horrible hurt will start all over again. I hate it.
I also did not sleep well last night. Poor Ben was throwing up until 2:30 last night. 😦 I stayed up to make sure he was okay and be there to help him if he needed anything. But then after he got whatever he ate out of his system and came back to bed, I still couldn’t sleep!! I ended up getting about 4 hours of sleep as apposed to my normal 8-9 hours. (I love my sleep. I go to bed at 9:30 like an old woman because I love my sleep so much)
Anyway, I kept thinking about weaving and how I feel like I’m not making enough stuff and how I’m being way too lazy about the way I weave. I feel like my projects never turn out how I want or expect…I also am struggling to come up with ideas of WHAT to weave…I get a little tired of scarves. I’d like to weave some table runners. I even have a pattern in my head picked out that would be beautiful. I’ve just been so lazy about my calculations and so intimidated by anything over 450 ends (I think that’s the most I’ve ever used in a project) or anything wider than about 25 inches. I’d love to weave blankets or table cloths or other wide things but they intimidate me!! It’s so dumb. I need to just suck it up and do it. I have some really good ideas rolling around in my head but I’m just not sure how to put them into practice…It’s like I said in a previous post, I need to start sampling. Grrr….
Ugh. I have to work today and I’m not looking forward to it. I want to do something useful with my morning and later this afternoon but I’m so tired! Maybe I’ll just chill today and work on something Wednesday.